I have been out assessing my plants to see what preparations need to be done before the next blast of cold settles in.
But that is not where my mind was. My thoughts were on the changes coming.
Not in the weather, but in the course of my life.
I always thought that when you got to a point in your life when you were in the right place, doing the right thing,
that you would have peace.
I have been searching for this. I asked myself as I trudged up the hill,
“When will I feel at peace?”
As I finished my question, I looked down at my long-awaited, White by the Gate.
I felt peace for an instant. It was like an answer, but not the one I wanted.
Peace will never be a period, it will be moments of guidance
to let you know that whatever gave you that peace is right.
Restlessness is also a guide, to keep you moving and changing and trying.
Restlessness is the rod and peace is the green pastures.
I guess this FLOWER is not finished. She has more to do.
My path has not been found yet.
I will keep searching.
floweralley 
Yes! great comment on life. Carry on, Flower.
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Thanks Queen
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I wonder if we ever find our path. There are a lot of questions to ask that may never be answered.
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Ouch. That is my fear.
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Perhaps you are ON your path, even as you wonder what it is. Keep your eyes, ears, mind, and heart open to the signs, just as you did when you noticed the white bloom of White by the Gate.
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I am bushwhacking my way through. Thanks sis.
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Oddly enough, I was having similar thoughts today. I am older than you, so I do think it gets a little clearer as you get older or maybe you just become wiser. Just today I had a moment of such joy and love – out of the clear blue- and I tried to be present in it and enjoy it. Later today, I felt a sadness and I tried to remind myself of the earlier joyful moment. I think maybe you live in the moments and try to be brought back to and focus on the good ones. I think often of things my 97 year old mom has said, and I remember when she was in her 70’s and 80’s, she would say she felt better than she ever had in her life. Some decades are definitely harder than others. You bring a lot of peace to me with your blogs! Keep them coming with the insight and wonderful pictures and tunes of nature!! Love and Merry Christmas to all of you!
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Thank you Sally. I miss your mom’s laugh and I know she was a go-to mother who could get anything done. Kiss her for me.
I guess wisdom is our reward for these years we have come through.
Our girl is going off to college, so my stint as her side-kick/care-giver will (hopefully) be over. Her medications work almost 100% of the time.
I have spent years wondering what I should do IF this day finally comes. Bless you and your family. My blog is my joy. Thank you for reading and responding.
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