I Must Keep Caring

I have told myself that I must keep going.

But I was wrong.

Going is not the problem.

I can still cook, weed and do laundry.

I can still clean and shop.

I can do anything I want to.

But I don’t want to.

This is not depression. I know it well.

This is despair.

My heart is not broken, it’s missing.

I am afraid of this non-feeling mode.

I do things, but I don’t feel things.

So now, instead of telling myself I must keep going

I am urging myself to keep caring.

I usually care too much.

Now I am numb.

Floe

 

17 thoughts on “I Must Keep Caring

  1. Thank you for sharing this, very thoughtful and well written.  I was keeping up with your dad’s health and was so sorry to hear about his passing. I know that you are very close to your parents.   Our new “son in law to be” has had a very close friend go through the lost his father/guardian this last week.  I shared this with him in hopes, that he will share with Chris.     Thank you again, and enjoy your blog!  Looking to get out to Deaeste or to do something fun, just let me know.  Lisa  Sent from Mail for Windows 10 From: floweralleySent: Tuesday, August 11, 2020 8:05 AMTo: lhharwell64@gmail.comSubject: [New post] I Must Keep Caring Flower Roberts posted: "I have told myself that I must keep going. But I was wrong. Going is not the problem. I can still cook, weed and do laundry. I can still clean and shop. I can do anything I want to. But I don’t want to. This is not depression. I know it well. This"

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  2. 🤗Big Hug 🤗 to you! It’s hard, very hard. It takes time, then all of a sudden something or someone will come along and a smile will come to your face and your being numb will start going away! 😉

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